Reality

When I look back over the timeline I call life and I see those times where I’ve stood feeling naked, helpless and totally alone.  I now know those are the times that I was graced with a new opportunity.   A rebirth of sorts, a chance to start over.  

I never desired to be heartbroken or to have to start my life over, not even once. Thats not how its written it the fairy tales.  Thats not what I dreamed of as a lil girl or young lady.  

In my mind it was a simple plan.  A one shot harmony that evolved into beauty and a life time of happiness.  Sure I knew there would be bumps maybe even a road block or two – but I never dreamed there would be times it would feel like a mine field in a foreign country.

My momma always showed me to do what’s right, no matter what, just do what’s right.  That is not always the easy path – I promise.  I’ve tried to follow that.  It has caused some pain, tears and maybe a heartache.  You see  I believed everyone was taught the same.  It came as a shock to realize that there are a lot of people in this world that believe the world was created for them and them alone.  That in itself has be painful.  

As I look back at those hard times, from this side of the fence, I am thankful.  The grass is not always greener and sometimes it has taken a journey through the desert to touch any grass at all – I am still thankful.   

Today I am a very strong, independent woman.  I have been successful thus far in life.  All of my children make make proud and I have a husband that supports me unconditionally and spoils me rotten.    

If the journey had been easier and the road less rocky I might not be who I am today.  So thank you to those that have come and gone and to the few friends that has walked besides me for much of the journey.  Each of you hold a special place in my heart.  

One friend has not only walked beside but knows my skeletons personally, her name and face are etched upon on my soul.  I would not have had the strength to cross some necessary fences if you would have loaned me some of yours –  thanks Nell.

Here’s to another day of being thankful.  Looking back with open eyes, a greatful heart.  Reality is what it is, the good with the bad, only we can define who we will become from it.  I choose to be strong and take those lessons in stride!

Wizard Reality

9/03/14

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Fairytale Life

When you grow up enough to realize that fairytales are just that, frogs never do turn into that handsome prince and at some point we are all Cinderella – before the ball.  That’s when life becomes real. 

We learn that fairytales are for young dreamy girls.  Once a pig (I mean frog) always a pig (frog), and why would we ever think glass shoes would be a good idea? 

I secretly dreamed, the same dream, that most young girls do – the handsome prince, the castle, beautiful flowing hair, a chariot that turns heads, even the beautiful shoes that would bring a kingdom to her knees….

And then I began to grow up.  The babies came, as did the mortgage, and the electric bill.  I watched as friends fluttered to the side and life happened.

I became disenchanted with reality, as I discovered that the plumber on tv was closer to reality than my Cinderella Story had ever been, except the plumber had a job. I found that the candy in the isle was more than the change in my pocket.  My chariot was merely a bucket of broken bolts, and my best pumps were really slippers.

I accepted life on life’s terms.  I accepted me, and I made a few changes.  I look the trash out, I left those slippers and that bucket of broken bolts near the can as I closed the lid, and the chapter.  

Once again,  I found myself.  This time more like a new born baby, feeling naked and alone.  Upon deciding that my children were my kingdom, frogs were best left to sing in the mudd and heels were never really practical anyway.  Here my friends is where my true journey began.  

Live is an adventure, from birth to death.   It is as good as you make it.  We deserve anything we tolerate and life WILL be shorter than we thought.  These are a few realities that changed my world.  When I accepted life on life’s terms and that I didn’t need a fairytale to be ok, I became ok.  

I have loved, and I have lost. I have fought, and I have won.  I have dreamed and I have conquered.  

Today I know that my happiness is my responsibility.  I know that a lot of people will never get it or me, like the Jeep thing, it’s a Callie thing.  The real changes come when the reality of, its not about me anyway, sinks in.  

Today I am blessed, and I do live the true and ever eluding fairytale that so many lil girls dream about.  I have an amazing prince and my very own castle.  My chariot has everything on my wish list and then some.  

Each day is an adventure, a creation, a new beginning and an opportunity.  Although I didn’t start with the fairy tale, thank goodness, (I might have really been a brat) but from my vantage point today it sure feels like one.   I’m  certain that when it ends some others will also see it as one.  

So here’s to life, love, happiness and fairytales.  May you live your every dream, what ever they may be.  May happiness encompass you and may love infuse your very soul….

Truly living the dream…

Wizard Wisdom 101

8/25/15

Give Yourself A Break

There are some things that never cease to amaze me.  Then there are others that should just be accepted as truth..

Humans will continue to be humans.  You cant fix stupid no matter how many times or ways you try.  Preconcieved notions are seldom altered.  Some core beliefs are ingrained so deep that no amount of evidence that the belief is wrong will ever change it.  We only recognize fault in others that we see or have seen in ourselves.  Things that gouge our soul when we are young create the bounderies that we remain within when we are old.  Fear is a learned behavior.  Not everything is as it seems.  If we all treated each other like we would treat our grandma the world would be a gentler place.  We can not make others feel anything – they do that to themselves.  

If you feel the need to judge others at least get to know them first.  Humans, like camelions, learn to blend into their surroundings and the expectations of others.  Being who others expect is easier than trying to get a buy in.  

Give yourself a break – the rest of the world might not be so kind.

Wizard Wisdom 101

8/2/13

Reflect

Often in life we are given exactly what we ask for – even if it comes at a time that we dont remember having asked.  

When desires are strong, even if unspoken, the energy draws those things to us.  Funny that sometimes we forget to stop that flow of energy when we change direction.

I am thankful for all of the gifts life has granted me.  I am also thankful for the gentle reminders that so many of my desires have been granted, even when I have changed direction.   

Moving forward in my mind, releasing spent energy.  Nothing is a waste, all things come with lessons we would find nowhere else.  Accept the lessons, once again make peace with what is and move forward with no regrets.

The dark of night is an opportunity to renew, tomorrow is a new day to reflect.  Moving forward…..

Wizard Wisdom 101

8/1/14

The Biggest Battle

The biggest battle we fight sits right between our ears – the rest is easy.  

Make peace with the demons, silence the roar, make yourself happy, spend quality time with those you love and when what ever you’re doing is not longer fun or healthily change it.  

Living with no regrets means being willing to make tough decisions, walk through some pain, occasionally share others sufferings and trusting yourself enough to follow your gut.  

Everything has a season in life.  We can force things to grow out of season but rarely will they flourish.  When the season ends let it. 

Move forward.  Please yourself, take care of your own and make the time to spend with those that matter – it will never make itself!

Life is shorter than we expect, some things we take for granted and can never be retrieved.  

Let the battle go and enjoy life!

Wizard Wisdom 101

7/30/14

Thoughts

Some days my mind races so fast that a world class sprinter could never catch it.  Other days my thoughts are deep enough to reach the ocean floor.  

Thoughts fall upon other thoughts creating a mound, a huge pile, of what would appear as rubble to others, for me its who and what I am, my core.  

You see thoughts are what create action, and action is what defines us to the world.  I wish I could say I dont care what the world thinks but it would be a lie.  I don’t want to care, but somewhere inside there’s that twinge when diappapproval comes.  That rush of excitement when someone stands in my corner and cheers.  The feeling of satisfaction when I see one of my own clear a hurdle, that look of accomplishment when they succeed is priceless – that reaches my very soul. 

Thoughts are boundless and never ending – protect them.

Wizard Wisdom 101

7/23/14

Unfinished Thoughts 

When the darkness settles and the world becomes still, the hush gets louder and the silence is shrill. 

The world is asleep, while quiet minds lie awake, nothing left to prove, no more need to fake. 

Come on morning, is it almost time, bring on the day light and warm sunshine. 

Minutes become hours and day turns to night, time passes slowly but in the blink of an eye.

Wizard Wisdom 101