Dyllan

So young and so strong. Your smile and your strength hide the lost look in your eyes. Your heart screams softly as you hide the pain…

Tomorrow doesn’t always come, and that is way to soon …

Hold on to one another…

So young and so strong. The other day just a boy, he became a man. Protecting your heart to ease the lost look in your eye. Holding you close to ease the pain….

Tomorrow doesn’t always come, and yours has already began…

Weary Wizard

4/5/15

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The Tale Of Love

Approximately 10 1/2 years ago, after too many shattered dreams, a broken heart and a wounded soul, I gave up on the idea that having someone next to me would bring me eternal bliss.

Please understand I was not designed as a go it alone kind of girl. I began planning a family before I knew what family planning was. I believed in fairy tales and happily ever afters. After all – what’s not to love, I have always worked real hard, made good money, and I have beautiful children.

Somewhere along that time I was convinced that no one wants a woman that works too many hours, and the money was never enough anyway and who would want a woman with 4 kids. I was told I was washed up, old, undesirable and destined to be alone – I believed EVERY word of that. Among the caious I did find a lil lions courage, but even a lions courage can shatter a heart. Time to move on.

This is where my story really begins. Here is where I made my decision. I decided to be own best friend and to care for me as I would a mate. Very painfully I learned to spend time with me, I even learned to like me, who knew. I became whole. By whole I mean I began to accept me for who I was and where I was. I learned that even with my flaws I was pretty ok. After all – I worked hard, made good money and had beautiful children.

When I found me, accepted me and learned to like me, when I truly let go of “needing someone to love me” – I was free. I could even go outside after dark by myself – yes I called 3 people before – just incase the boogy man got me, but I still did it. I had fun and I did what I wanted and needed to do for me. I was happy.

Plot twist – 9 years ago today in a secret yet public setting, I married a man I had know only a few months that set my world on fire.

When I met Brad he was a rock, as solid as the concrete I stood on everyday. He was confident, quiet, bold, he looked right through most people – except me – he looked into my soul and captured my very essence. He was encouraging, but firm. He had time for me but he cared for himself. He strived to build my confidence and he even stroked my ego a time or two. He believed in me, he supported me. He loved me where I was. He protected me from the dark side and helped me to quiet my demons. Brad encouraged me and reminded me soothe to my own soul.

9 years is the perfect start to that blissfull fairy tale, I had given up on. We have fun together, we like each other, we don’t always agree, but we never fight. We are always planning what’s next and chasing our dreams – what else is there.

I have been blessed so many times over in these 45 years of awakenings. The last 9 have been extra special. I am looking forward to the rest of forever with this rock I call my lover.

Bradley you are more than I hoped for, but all that I prayed for, you truly are my knight in shining armour. Happy Anniversary Poppy, I love you to the moon and back…

Wizards Fairy Tale 101

The Wizard and The Warrior

Once in a while in the chaos of life a fairy tale happens.

Brad meandered into my life in late January, 2007. He was big, bold and blue eyed. He had arms as big as my head and a gentle smile. His words were few, but when he looked into my eyes his gaze was forever. We began to dream and to plan, maybe that day, and the next and the one after that, about everything!! We didn’t bother with telling the traditional people – like our parents or our kids, but on Friday the 13th, we said I do.

When this man walked into my world the noise went silent and the music began to play. My once dreams are now my reality.
He has held my hand and my heart when both were weak, sharing his strength until I found my own.

We laugh together, we have cried together, we dream together and we might even have a plan. Tomorrow is always on our horizon and the next big adventure is always underway.

I look forward to our tomorrow’s and love to reminisce about our yesterday’s. Every little girl deserves a knight in shining armour, even it takes almost 40 years to find him.

I feel blessed to have found mine and to be living my very own fairy tale. Happy Anniversary Poppy, I love you!

The Wizard and The Warrior find love…

4/13/17

Go To Sleep

When emotions run raw and dreams run deep, sometimes there’s laughter and sometimes you weep.

It’s the little things that mean the most. They’re what hit us at the core and the reason we lift a glass to toast.

Today will fade as tomorrow takes its place, another day – another race.

When emotions run raw and dreams runs deep, close your eyes child and go to sleep…

The Restless Wizard

4/12/15

Searching

Standing on the back porch, searching for your friend. You head rests on the rails and you tail slowly wags as you sniff the air.

I know you smell her here, even though she’s gone. Nose to the concrete and sniffing again. Each step carries her scent.

You sit patiently waiting, looking over the whole yard, but she’s not there.

Your sister is close and her scent is even closer. I’m sorry she had to go.

Wizard Wisdom 101

Self Love

When we love ourselves the way we imagine someone else should and take care of ourselfs in the same manner – then and only then can that person come along. Until then we will meet and fall in “love” with and be crushed by people that treat us exactly as we treat ourselves..

Wizard Wisdom 101

4/3/16